Memory / Jackie WeISS
Jaime Thanks for sending the rainbows to us the other day. It was double rainbows. Your Uncle Lynn said that was the first time he ever saw a double rainbow. We knew it was a sign to your Mom that Heaven is so beautiful. The angel tree will be coming up soon & again in memory of you we will touch a heart . What was really awesome was when we released the balloons they went straight to the rainbow. Love to you . Close

My inspiration  / Julie Cross (Friend)

It's Oktober 9th and I visited your beautiful memorial spot on Black's road twice today. I can't believe it's been 5 years. So many things have changed and there's been so many days and nights when I wished it had been me instead of you. But I know God has his reasons and I will see you again someday. I turn 30 on Sunday and it's been sort of depressing and when I visited you the first time it was out of respect; then when I went back tonight it was because of guilt. Here I've screwed up my life so bad and have disappointed my family my friends and myself all because I have a problem with drugs. I'm a recovering drug addict. So in my mind the fact that you are gone and I'm here is baffling to me. The 16th of this month I'll will be clean and sober 6 months which is huge. I was slowly committing suicide to myself over the course of 10 years. But with my meetings and a constant relationship with my God it's getting better and better. I feel your presence all the time and I want you to know that I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Knowing that you are in heaven safe and sound gives me hope on a daily basis that if I keep myself on the path to recovery I will be there one day too. And I WILL see you again! 

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MY NIGHTMARE  / MOM PAM

I DREAD THIS DAY EVERY OTHER DAY I REMEMBER YOU AND TIFF AND YOUR WONDERFUL FRIENDSHIP OH HOW I MISS YAL BUT THEN THIS DAY REARS ITS UGLY SELF AND I HAVE TO RELIVE THE REASON THAT IM HAVING TO WRITE ON THIS WEBSITE. I DO HATE THIS.

I LOVE U BIGFOOT GOD KNOWS I MISS U WISH LIFE WASN'T THIS WAY WISH I COULD HAVE HAD ALOT MORE MEMORIES OF U AND TIFF MOST OF ALL I WISH THAT U AND TIFF DIDN'T HAVE TO HAVE YOUR HEARTS BROKEN I LOST U AND A BIG PART OF HER THAT NIGHT AND I WILL NEVER STOP HURTING. LUV 4-EVA MOM 

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HAPPY 21st JAIME  / Carol Kiparisus (Friend Of Family )

OMG!!! You're 21 today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I know it's difficult for your parents to not be able to celebrate this day with you physically but you are with them:) In a way we can't even begin to imagine:) I can't believe I've already known your Mom 5 years seems like only yesterday...You are so loved and missed as my Johnny is...each day of our life:) Ya'll weren't suppose to leave us but I do understand God wanted ya'll back:) When you see Johnny give him a hug from his Mom and tell him I love him so very much!!! Have a Wonderful HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! FOREVER YOUNG:) Love and Hugs

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Happy Birthday Songbird!  / Janet Austin (friend of the family )
Happy birthday sweetheart. I know you are having a wonderful time in Heaven. Robin Ron Ronald Hazel and all the crew you are in my thoughts and prayers. I know the next two weeks are going to be a challenge but God will see you through! I pray for His love and mercy to give you strength to make it through the coming days. And I know Jaime is smiling down with that beautiful smile wishing she could wrap her arms around all of you! Close

Happy 21st birthday.  / Aunt Marsha

Happy 21st birthday Jaime'. I wish you were here to celebrate such a big day but you get to celebrate in Heaven. I know Myrna is there cause she always loved your birthday. We all miss you so much. I know this is so hard for your family but they will get through these next weeks with God's help. You will never be forgotten & always are loved. Well it's almost 12:30 & I have to get up early so you have a great day with all the ones that have passed & one day we'll see you all again.We love you & miss you everyday.

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HAPPY 21ST  / MOM PAM

HEY SWEETHEART WELL NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO CELEBRATE WITH YOU. YOUR 21ST SADLY WE CAN'T CELBRATE IN THE NORMAL WAY BUT I KNOW THAT YOU WILL RECEIVE MY HUGS AND KISSES TODAY. OUR GOD WOULDN'T LET YOU MISS THEM. SO I'M SENDING THEM AIRMAIL SPECIAL DELIVERY TO MY SPECIAL DAUGHTER. THERE'S HUNDREDS OF THEM SO YOU CAN RECEIVE  A HUG AND A KISS EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR DAY. IF I COULD I'D SEND YOU SOME COOKIE DOUGH ICE CREAM AND MY GREAT TEA BUT THEN I HEAR GOD'S IS BETTER THAN MINE WELL I'LL EXCEPT THAT BEING ITS GOD ANY OTHER WOULDN'T HAVE A CHANCE AGAINST MINE. LOL! HOWEVER YAL CELEBRATE DO SO WITH ALL MY LOVE WISH I COULD BE AT YOUR PARTY I BET YOUR BALLROOM WILL HAVE THOUSANDS OF PINK ROSES AND THEN THERE THEY WILL BE IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL THE PINK 2 BEAUTIFUL BLUE FLOWERS LIGHTING UP THE ROOM REPRESENTING MY 2 BEAUTIFUL GIRLS.   ALWAYS WITH ME IN MY HEART I LOVE YOU ALOT.  NOW MY SPECIALTY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BIGFOOT HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

XOXOXO LUV 4-EVA

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This time of the year!!!!!!  / Hazel Lee
Hey J'me a lot is going on in my life but u are on my mind. We just got back from church & AnnaLee and Kevin have went to bed. I was on the computer looking up Hawaiin dishes for AnnaLee's 9th birthday! (can u believe it)? I use to love doing your parties and this reminds me so much of you. It hurts. A lot has went on in these last 5 years. I really don't know how your Dad and Mom and Lil Ron has made it thus this far. Oh yeah I do Jesus Christ! Their was a lady speaking at church tonight and she was quoting something Kevin said if Love ain't in it God ain't in it. THat is so true. I have learned the hard way. Anyway didn't mean to get on that but love and charity and peace and joy is so much a part of Christians daily walk. Not just when we feel like it. Your Dad and I have Bible Study every Friday am I bet u would have never thought that!!!!!!! God is Good. Garys coming September 25 we are so excited and so is he. Gary keeps telling his foster mom I'm ready to go to my forever home. We found him Oktober 142008 and the Lord has been with us every step of the way. Every situation has arose to try and not make this happen b/c he was not a sc child but I didn't worry b/c I knew this was in the hands of the Lord. I never thought I would have another child I always said I would never give birth again but I can truly say this has been just as painful. ( of course in a diff. way)> When Kev and I flew out there spent a week and had to leave him it was like giving birth and leaving your child and then 6 months later Gary comes to visit us for a week and then has to leave we were all torn up. I can't wait to get him forever. You have a new cousin you'll get to meet him in the air when the Lord comes back for his children. In the mean time I'll keep living for Lord and teaching AnnaLee and Gary about him. I love you and thanx for the card. Luv wee-wee Close

BEEN TOO LONG 9/2/09  / MOM PAM

HELLO THERE NOW WHAT R U DOIN? ME JUST SITTIN AROUND RIGHT NOW. RB AND LISA LEFT THIS MORNING FOR TEXAS. IT WAS NICE HAVIN THEM HOME.  IT WAS BUSY TOO IM TIRED GOSH IM GETTIN OLD. WELL WHATS NEW WELL IM LONESOME AT THIS QUIET HOUSE RIGHT THIS MINUTE YOUR OTHER HALF DOESN'T KNOW HER WAY HOME MUCH SHOULD'VE KNOWN SHE'D BE LIKE ALL THE REST TOO BUSY FOR HER MOM! SHE IS DOIN GOOD IN SCHOOL IM PROUD OF HER FOR THAT I KNOW U R TOO. WE REALLY MISS U ESPECIALLY WHEN WE HAVE GET TOGETHERS AT THE HOUSE BUT I KEEP YOUR PICTURES IN ABOUT EVERY ROOM SO WHEREVER WE R U'RE THERE TOO. HEY U'RE EVEN IN THE GUEST BATHROOM SO U CAN WATCH EVERYONE PEE! LOL DON'T U LOVE IT? HEY MY MOM HAD HER 80TH BIRTHDAY PARTY THE OTHER DAY THAT WAS FUN REMEMBER WHEN YAL USE TO PUT ON SHOWS FOR HER SHE LOVED IT. YOUR MOM CLEANED YOUR ROOM FINALLY I HAD TO SET HER STRAIGHT ITS NOT AN ATTIC FOR STORAGE LOL.

ITS SEPTEMBER AND THATS A BITTERSWEET MONTH FOR ME I GET TO CELEBRATE ONE OF MY DAUGHTER'S DAY AND GRIEVE FOR YOURS I THINK ALL THE TIME JUST WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE U TWO WOULD HAVE GOTTEN INTO GIVEN THE CHANCE. I BET YOUR MOM AND I WOULD BE POPPIN ALOT OF XANAX LOL!.  21 YEARS OLD WOW I WILL BE BLOWING A CANDLE FOR U SO BE READY TO MAKE A WISH AND NO YOU CAN'T HAVE BRAD PITT HE'S TOO OLD FOR U AND NOT AS CUTE AS HE USE TO BE.

I THINK OF U ALL THE TIME STILL TELL STUFF ON U WHENEVER ANYONE WANTS TO LISTEN STILL LUV U TO BITS AND STILL MISS U WAY TOO MUCH. ITS MY BEDTIME SO I WILL SAY GOOD NIGHT. SWEET DREAMS REMEMBER WE WILL HUG AGAIN. LUV U BIG FOOT. HUGS AND KISSES XOXO

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Myrna / Aunt Marsha
Well Jaime', I know you were there to show Myrna the way when she got there on Monday.I bet ya'll are having a great time together. She loved you so much & as we all do, missed you so much.She looked so at peace tonight. She had on a pink jacket that lokked so good on her & she had your keychain in her hand.I'm going to miss her so much,but it makes me feel better knowing she doesn't have any more pain.Ya'll take care of each other.We'll never forget either one of you. Close

Happy Father's Day, Dad!  / To My Dad Love, J-me (Judy)

This is the card that I gave Dad this year it is so perfect...

Dad -

There's a place in my heart

that could never be filled

by anyone but you.

Even though we aren't together,

I want you to know

I think of you often

and I love you so much.

I wish I could be with you,

to give you a hug on your day.

Even though I can't, you're right here in my heart.

I'm asking God to bless you, Dad, and sending love on Father's Day.

Love,

Jaime' (Judy)

Philippians 1:3 NLT

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missing you  / Aunt Marsha

Hey, Jaime', it's been a while but you are always on my mind. Patty, who used to work at Blacks with us, is back in Cross & came by the other day. We talked about you & what a big hole your leaving us has caused in our hearts.Of course we cried, but we laughed as we remembered you & your shining light. And boy what a bright light you were in our lives!It's amazing how many people's lives you touched.We love you & miss you so much.You will never be forgotten. Bye for now. Ganny & I are going to town to get Lyla's birthday present. You would love her,Jaime'. She is such a great child. AnnaLee is getting so grown up. So many things going on & you aren't here with us. Well, maybe not physically, but we always feel your spirit.Bye.

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HEY ITS ME! 6/4/09  / MOM PAM

JUST WANTED TO DROP IN AND SAY HEY. WHAT U BEEN UP TO?

 I HOPE U GOT TO SEE GARY WHILE HE WAS VISITING. HAZEL LEE AND KEVIN AND ANNA LEE ARE EXCITED. HE IS A CUTIE, BUT THEY BETTER GET HIM A FITTED LIFE JACKET, HE LOVES THE WATER! LOL!!

NOTHING MUCH GOING ON HERE, JIM AND I JUST GOT BACK FROM CAMPING AT EDISTO. IM GOING TO FLORIDA TO SEE SUNNY GRADUATE, I DON'T KNOW WHY I DEDCIDED TO DO THAT BUT IT WAS LIKE I FELT SHE NEEDED  SOME EXTRA PEOPLE WHO LOVE HER THERE. I KNOW SHE WILL BE THINKING ABOUT HER MOM. I M GLAD IM GOING.

SO ANYTHING NEW IN HEAVEN? WHAT DO YAL DO WHEN YOU'RE NOT WALKING WITH GOD? I KNOW ITS BEAUTIFUL THERE. I PRAY THAT IM GOOD ENOUGH AND DO GOD'S WILL HERE ON EARTH SO I CAN SEE IT ONE DAY.

NOTHING ELSE NEW, JIM LOVES THE DOG MORE THAN HE DOES ME, THE GRANDBOYS ARE GETTING TOO BIG TO BE WITH MIMI ALL THE TIME, BUT LIFE IS GOOD. YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE DAYS GOD GIVES US AND MAKE THE BEST OF THEM. I MISS TIFFANY, I DON'T GET TO SEE HER MUCH, I GET LONESOME, BUT I KNOW SHE LOVES ME, SHES WORKING 2 JOBS AND GOING TO CLASS, I AM PROUD OF HER. DO YAL TALK MUCH? I WAS JUST WANDERING IF YAL HAVE YOUR MOMENTS. SHE SEEMS TO BE SO CLOSED MOUTH WHEN IM TALKING ABOUT YAL  BUT I THINK SHE TALKS TO YOU IN HER OWN WAY AND THATS THE WAY IT SHOULD BE, YOUR OWN SECRET COMMUNICATION. THE PERFECT BEST FRIENDS, I WANT WHAT YAL HAD, MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL.

WELL GOTTA GO PACK. I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU AND I WILL TALK TO YOU SOON. GIVE GOD AND YOURSELF AND BIG HUG AND KISS FOR ME AND TAKE CARE TILL WE TALK AGAIN.

LUV 4-EVA

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poem / Someone Who Misses You

       To all parents, by Edgar Guest

"I'll lend you for a little time, a child of mine." He said

"For you to love the while she lives,& mourn when she is dead.

"It may be 6 or 7 years, or 22 or 3,But will you til I call her back, take care of her for me?"

"She'll bring her charms to gladden you,but should her stay be brief,You'll have her lovely memories, as solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise she will stay,since all from earth return,but there are lessons taught down there ,I want this child to learn."

"I've looked the wide world over, in my search for teachers true, & from the throngs that crowd lifes lanes, I have selected you."

"Now will you give her all your love,nor think the labor vain,nor hate Me when I come to call,to take her back again?"

"I fancied that I heard them say."Dear Lord,Thy will be done!"For all the joy Thy child shall bring,the risk of grief we'll run."

"We'll shelter her with tenderness,we'll love her while we may,& for happiness we've known, forever grateful stay.

"But should the Angels come for her,much sooner than we planned, we'll have the bitter grief that comes & try to understand."

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OUR BIG DAY 4/18/09  / MOM PAM

HEY SWEETHEART, TODAY I WOKE WITH YOU ON MY MIND. ITS GOING TO BE A HECTIC DAY FOR ME AND AN EMOTIONAL ONE, AND I WANT TO TAHNK YOU FOR BEING THERE WITH ME, TIFF AND RB. I KNOW SOME PEOPLE THINK WE'RE NUTS (WELL I GUESS I AM A LITTLE) BUT I FEEL YOU WITH ME AND I KNOW THAT TODAY YOU WILL BE SITTING WITH ME WHILE WE WATCH THAT GEEKY RB SAY I DO. OH MY GOSH YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE AT THE BEACH AND HIM AND DANIEL TREATED YOU AND TIFF SO BAD, IM STILL LAUGHING AT YAL WALKING TO THE RESTARAUNT AND THEM RIDING BY AND NOT PICKING YAL UP HONEY YOURS AND TIFF'S FACE PRICELESS!!! LOL LOL  YOUR LITTLE TALK ON THE FRONT PORCH AFTERWARDS!!! LOL LOL    OH SWEEETIE THE MEMORIES, I LOVE YOU, I WISH WE COULD MAKE MORE MEMORIES TOGETHER BUT IM GLAD WE DO HAVE THE ONES WE HAVE. YOU AND RB DATING WAS A TRIP AND I ENJOYED THE RIDE. WELL JUST TO LET YOU KNOW HE'S STILL A RUMPUS BEHIND, HOLD MY HAND TODAY AND WE'LL LAUGH AND CELEBRATE TOGETHER AND SHARE OUR GLANCES TO EACH OTHER WHEN ONLY WE KNEW WHAT WE WERE THINKING AT THE SAME TIME.

NOW TIFF HAS GONE OVER THE EDGE WITH A BOYFRIEND, WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? YOU MAKE SURE THAT YAL HAVE A TALK SOON TO KEEP HER STRAIGHT. I OFTEN SIT AND WONDER WHAT YOU TWO WOULD BE DOING NOW AND WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE YOUR MOM AND I WOULD BE TRYING TO GET YAL OUT OF, REMEMBER KIM'S HOUSE? LOL   I KNOW THINGS AREN'T THE SAME BUT TIFF KEEPS YOU WITH HER ALL THE TIME IN HER HEART AND THAT YAL STILL SHARE EACH OTHERS DEEP DARK SECRETS.

WELL GOTTA GO, HEY COME EARLY AND GIVE ME A HUG BECAUSE I NEED IT SOOO BAD AND HELP TIFF WHEN SHES WALKING IN THOSE OUTRAGEOUS HEELS I WOULD JUST HATE FOR HER TO FALL IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. LOL I PROBABLY COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING. THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR US , I KNEW YOU WOULDN'T MISS IT FOR THE WORLD BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE US . TTYL BY THE WAY WHAT COLOR DRESS R U WEARING, IM GREEN SO DON'T CLASH WITH ME. SEE U AROUND 3. LUV U LOTS AND 4-EVA    

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OUR BIG DAY 4/18/09  / MOM PAM

HEY SWEETHEART, TODAY I WOKE WITH YOU ON MY MIND. ITS GOING TO BE A HECTIC DAY FOR ME AND AN EMOTIONAL ONE, AND I WANT TO TAHNK YOU FOR BEING THERE WITH ME, TIFF AND RB. I KNOW SOME PEOPLE THINK WE'RE NUTS (WELL I GUESS I AM A LITTLE) BUT I FEEL YOU WITH ME AND I KNOW THAT TODAY YOU WILL BE SITTING WITH ME WHILE WE WATCH THAT GEEKY RB SAY I DO. OH MY GOSH YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE AT THE BEACH AND HIM AND DANIEL TREATED YOU AND TIFF SO BAD, IM STILL LAUGHING AT YAL WALKING TO THE RESTARAUNT AND THEM RIDING BY AND NOT PICKING YAL UP HONEY YOURS AND TIFF'S FACE PRICELESS!!! LOL LOL  YOUR LITTLE TALK ON THE FRONT PORCH AFTERWARDS!!! LOL LOL    OH SWEEETIE THE MEMORIES, I LOVE YOU, I WISH WE COULD MAKE MORE MEMORIES TOGETHER BUT IM GLAD WE DO HAVE THE ONES WE HAVE. YOU AND RB DATING WAS A TRIP AND I ENJOYED THE RIDE. WELL JUST TO LET YOU KNOW HE'S STILL A RUMPUS BEHIND, HOLD MY HAND TODAY AND WE'LL LAUGH AND CELEBRATE TOGETHER AND SHARE OUR GLANCES TO EACH OTHER WHEN ONLY WE KNEW WHAT WE WERE THINKING AT THE SAME TIME.

NOW TIFF HAS GONE OVER THE EDGE WITH A BOYFRIEND, WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? YOU MAKE SURE THAT YAL HAVE A TALK SOON TO KEEP HER STRAIGHT. I OFTEN SIT AND WONDER WHAT YOU TWO WOULD BE DOING NOW AND WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE YOUR MOM AND I WOULD BE TRYING TO GET YAL OUT OF, REMEMBER KIM'S HOUSE? LOL   I KNOW THINGS AREN'T THE SAME BUT TIFF KEEPS YOU WITH HER ALL THE TIME IN HER HEART AND THAT YAL STILL SHARE EACH OTHERS DEEP DARK SECRETS.

WELL GOTTA GO, HEY COME EARLY AND GIVE ME A HUG BECAUSE I NEED IT SOOO BAD AND HELP TIFF WHEN SHES WALKING IN THOSE OUTRAGEOUS HEELS I WOULD JUST HATE FOR HER TO FALL IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. LOL I PROBABLY COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING. THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR US , I KNEW YOU WOULDN'T MISS IT FOR THE WORLD BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE US . TTYL BY THE WAY WHAT COLOR DRESS R U WEARING, IM GREEN SO DON'T CLASH WITH ME. SEE U AROUND 3. LUV U LOTS AND 4-EVA    

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Good Morning/Thinking of you  / Mom

Hey Jaime' I was up early and you have been on my mind.

It is so weird how fast time goes by it has been 4 years and 6 months on Thursday I never thought I would make it that long. 

Dad and I were talking about how the new normal is missing you. I know that will never go away.  I wish all the time how I wish things were different. I watch your friends going to college, coming home, getting married, seeing pic with all there college freinds it breaks my heart those were just the things u couldn't wait to do.  Life is so unfair why, why, why...I HATE IT It has sure changed our lives. Nothing is the same and never will be. Things that were not difficult before are now. I know it was in God's plan and you let your light shine and I am very grateful but Mom misses u...

I know you are cheering for your cousin Jay a full recovery.  Tell God to please take care of him. 

Just know how much Mom misses you and loves you forever. No matter how many years you may be gone this hole you left in my heart will never go away.  Sometimes I sit and think about that how a Mom and Dad's heart ache after their children it is so unfair to be put thru this  kind of pain. 

I love you j-me

Please help me keep Lil ron straight. HELPPPP...

Mom

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !!!!!!!!  / HAZEL LEE
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!! WE'VE HAD A AWESOME WEEK AT REVIVAL I DO NOT WANT IT TO END!! I KNOW HEAVEN IS UNDESCRIBEABLE !!!!!! UNCLE MILTON PASSED YESTERDAY I JUST HOPE SOMEHOW HE WAS ABLE TO ASK JESUS INTO HIS HEART AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS HE WAS A HARD MAN BUT AT THE SAME TIME A LOVING MAN. I HAVE SO MANY MEMORIES AS A CHILD WITH HIM AND GRANDMA LUND GANNY IS GONNA MISS HIM SO MUCH. I LUV YOU JAIME AND JESUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!! MICHAEL COMBS IS COMING TONIGHT WE ARE GONNA HAVE A HALLELUJAH GOOD TIME IN THE NAME OF OUR SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST THE ONE AND ONLY ONE WHO SAVES US AND GIVES US ETERNAL HOPE!!!!!! THANK YOU ,JESUS!!!!!! ONE WAY - JESUS YOU ARE THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE WE LIVE BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT FOR U (JESUS)!!!!!!!!!!! I LUV YALL WEE-WEE Close

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY  / MOM PAM
HEY SWEETIE, WANTED TO SAY I WUV U! I THINK OF ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAS MADE IT TO HEAVEN AND WOW THE LOVE GOD HAS FOR US TO ALLOW US TO WALK IN HIS PRESENCE. AND I THOUGHT WHAT A GRAND VALENTINES DAY YOU MUST BE HAVING IN HEAVEN. ALL THE LOVE , CARING AND HAPPINESS. ENJOY IT SWEETHEART, BUT KNOW I MISS U HERE ON EARTH AND U STILL FILL MY HEART. LUV U BUNCHES. COULDN'T SEND U FLOWERS SO HERE IS MY GREAT BIG   KISS!! Close

HAPPY NEW YEAR  / MOM PAM

GOOD MORN, I KNOW I'M LATE FOR CHRISTMAS, I HEARD IT FROM YOUR LOVELY AUNT!! IT WASN'T THAT I DIDN'T THINK OF U I WAS JUST GOING THRU MY OWN THING AND WAS BEING PITIFUL AND SELFISH. AS U KNOW NOT ONLY WERE U NOT HERE BUT NEITHER WAS RB AND I HAD TO HAVE MY SORRY FOR ME PARTY, JUST LIKE TODAY BUT I WASN'T GOING TO GO WITHOUT TELLING U I LOVE U TODAY NO MATTER WHAT I'M FEELING.

JIM AND KEITH HAS GONE TO FLORIDA FOR THE GATOR BOWL SO I'M HOME ALONE. I'M NOT SURE EXACTLY WHAT IS HAPPENING DOWN HERE BUT IT SEEMS NO ONE IS CLOSE IN FAMILY OR FRIENDSHIPS ANYMORE, OH WELL MAYBE I'M JUST NOT GOOD FOR ANYONE TO BE AROUND RIGHT NOW, OF COURSE I THOUGHT THAT WAS WHEN YOUR FRIENDS WERE SUPPOSE TO BE THERE FOR U WHAT DO I KNOW. WELL LETS GET OFF THE PITY POT!!

DID YAL HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION? I JUST CAN'T IMAGINE THE MAJESTY OF IT ALL. I'VE BEEN READING THE BIBLE AND WATCHING PREACHING THIS MORN, I WANT MY 2009 TO BE MORE IN TOUCH WITH GOD THAN 2008. I KNOW I WANT TO BE WITH HIM FOR ETERNITY, SOMETIMES ITS NOT EASY BUT I THINK I'M DOING HIS WILL AT THE PACE HE IS DIRECTING ME. I'M IN THE CHOIR AT SANDRIDGE BAPTIST, I LOVE THIS CHURCH THE PEOPLE ARE SO NICE AND NO ONE TRYS TO STOP U FROM DOING GOD'S WILL WHICH IS  A BIG CHANGE FROM OTHER CHURCHES. I ALSO HELP TEACH 3-5 YEAR OLDS IN MISSION FRIENDS. I THINK I'M GOING TO HELP BUILD HOMES, I'M PRAYING ABOUT IT. IT FEELS GOOD TO BE IN GOD'S HANDS, I WISH  OTHERS UNDERSTOOD THE HAPPINESS IT BRINGS TO YOUR LIFE. I HOPE MY LIGHT IS SHINING FOR THEM (WITH THE EXCEPTION OF TODAY, I HAVE TO GO THRU THIS SOMETIMES GOD UNDERSTANDS).

I SIT AND WAIT HOPING TO HEAR FROM RB ALL THE TIME, I MISS HIM SO MUCH. U KNOW HE IS MARRIED NOW AND IN IRAQ.

WELL GUESS WHAT? TIFF IS DATING TATE, REMEMBER WHAT WE WENT THRU 6 YEARS AGO? HAHA!!  I LIKE HIM HE SEEMS NICE, BUT I WILL NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS IF HE HURTS OUR GIRL.  SHE THINKS OF U ALL THE TIME,  YALS TREE WAS PRETTIER THIS YEAR THAN EVER, BUT I THINK WE'RE GOING TO HAVE TO GET A BIGGER ONE, WE GET NEW ORNAMENTS EVERY YEAR AND ITS GETTING FULL. YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT THERE WITH US EVERYDAY IN OUR HEARTS. I ALSO PUT YOUR SANTA HAT ON U THIS YEAR.

WELL ITS TIME TO GET BACK TO MY PITY PARTY, I LOVE U LOTS AND I KNOW YOU WILL BE ONE OF MY LOVED ONES WAITING FOR ME AT THE GATES OF HEAVEN, I'M TRYING MY BEST TO MAKE SURE TIFF IS COMING TOO, YOU OULD SEND ME SOME HELP ON THAT, TELL GOD WE NEED HIM TO SHOW ME THE WAY FOR ALL MY KIDS. 

THINKING OF U ALWAYS LOVE U LOTS MISS U BUNCHES TALK TO U SOON, LUV 4-EVA

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